Dec 20, 2009

Unexplained Infertility

Ok. Here's the news. www.fertilityfactor.com said 10-20% of couples experience infertility problems will have the syndrome of 'unexplained infertility'. Its already considered small as a percentage as compared to the domineering 80% of women who CAN conceive naturally. But bear in mind the problems like endometriosis, failure of ovulation, tubal damage, cysts, fibroids, azoospermia, hormonal imbalance, PCOS have taken up nearly half of the 20%. The remaining half encompasses the dreaded 'unexplained infertility'.... like my case.

After numerous test and few thousand MYR and one failed IUI, the reports declared that:
  • my ovaries - everything in them are normal
  • my uterus - initial scan detected 5-6 fibroids but the sizes warranted dr to say 'leave them alone. Too small to be a concern.' Latest vaginal sonograms showed only 2 fibroids. Other than the fibroids, no sign of endometriosis.
  • Dino dad's sperm - above average. More than enough to fertilize just one egg.
  • Hormones essay - normal except for hypothyroid relapsed but very quickly re-balanced through intake of thyroxine.
  • my fallopian tubes - though felt like semi-blocked during the hysterosalpingoram but won't one egg chance getting through in 27 months?

Its karma having to fall into this bracket of people. Even malnourished African and Indian women or the aborigines are giving birth like pigs and their kids grow up healthy to marry the other half to continue the breeding cycle.

Ai.......MySpace

Dec 19, 2009

Cycle 28 @ day 24 - GnRH injection

I had my 4th morning jab of GnRH same time between 9-10am this morning. Dino dad is getting very accustomed to the administration:MySpace
  • retrieving the drug from the fridge
  • unsealed the syringe
  • press out the air from the syrine
  • poke syringe into the rubberized cap for drug tab
  • draw 200ml of drug
  • sanitize my tummy with sterilized cotton buds
  • and jab and sanitize again
As far as i've researched, GnRH (the gonadotropin releasing hormone is a hormone-based supplement responsibles for the release of 'more' FSH (follicle stimuating hormone) and LH (luteinizing hormone) by stimulating my pituitary gland which is located beneath my back brain). All women who can birth children the natural way apparently have very healthy natural production of GnRH.
Now only i understood that my pituitary gland is so fundamental that it releases various hormones that manage my:
  • growth
  • blood pressure
  • breast milk production
  • sex organ functions in men and women
  • thyroid gland function (oh oh oh...it could link to my hypothyroidism relapse)
  • converting food to energy (hmm, that's why i always felt bloated)
  • water balance in my body (i'm a regular victim of water-retention...oh my)
I could be lacking in the natural GnRH and that could explain my relapse of hypothyroid. Oh my, i am becoming doctor. Oh well, no harm playing dr. My dr is not a PR-man. Long gone i'd hoped for a doc like George Clooney in E or Dr House. Doesn't matter now. My hair is wet. Got to stick to my belief that GnRH has proven the results in multiple pregnancies and that's what i am attracting.
However, i have been given the long protocol presciption. It means the COH (controlled ovarian hyperstimulation) for younger women...heh heh heh...i am in the younger women group,MySpace For now up till menstruation day 2, i am on GnRH agonist daily morning DIY injection. It works just the opposite of the natural GnRH - to stop the LH hormone because early secretion of LH by my pituitary gland could disturb the growth quality of my eggs. In another word, it means to 'stop ovulation liked be in a menopause'. How marvelous is science! They can adverse natural cycle. MySpace and found ways to help the process of growing better quality eggs. Even though the COH has been around for more than 10 years, i can safely bet less than 1% of common layman knew of its existence.

Now i am gonna braced myself for some old lady side effect such as hot flashes, if they would come at all. Never mind. Bring it on! I am ready mentally to receive side effects, in return for a pair of health twins tigers. Yeah! that's my law of attraction in practice now.MySpace

Dec 17, 2009

cycle 28 @ day 21 (Dec 17, 09) - IVF begins

Reached the medical center at about 10am. It was quite a breezy cruise. Traffic was light. Felt peaceful and light-hearted throughout the journey. Probably its the underlying feeling of assurance that we are now concretely taking step one to make ourselves some babies. Probably its the knowing that we will be put under the care of some IVF specialists who will be working hard to help us realize our burning desire to be parents. No more waiting. Time for solid action.MySpace

The attendance and nurses were extra friendly this morning. Was it me or them? Anyway, the courtesy was shortly lived. I was unhappy to know that my dr was to be engaged in his lengthy regular Thursday meeting. So i'd asserted myself clearly for i am quite a demanding patient. A sonographer was placed in to conduct a thorough recce of my uterus and ovaries through vaginal scan. It was a good thing my dr was engaged. This young sonographer had demonstrated her earnest practice on me through careful probing and reading of my condition. She was very thorough. I'd loved it.

To my surprised, she announced non-cyst existence in both my uterus and ovaries. The fibroids had reduced to two from three last scanned on Dec 7. Probably great thanks to the bitter chinese herbs.

When the scanning was satisfactory, we were then referred to the embryologist, a petite young chinese girl with height, i think, less than 4ft 9. She was a gem. As we have been known to carry the iconic title of "the interrogative couple" known to the staffs, we blasted off loads of questions to the embryologist. But, she wasn't daunted even a bit. She had us under her belt.

With fluid presentation liked as she'd done more than 50 cases a year, she demonstrated the way that i would to inject myself everyday at home. Dino dad caught up with the procedure without breaking a sweat and proceeded to administer my first GnRH jab himself at my spare-tyre under the embryologist's trained eyes.

Today is the first day of the COH (controlled ovarian hyperstimulation) procedure. I was given a huge thermal bag containing a 12" x 12" block of ice + 10 insulin-size syringes + 1 tiny bottle of GnRH (gonadotropin releasing hormone) + 1 tube full of disinfectant cotton buds. As the GnRh needed to be chilled at all time, the thermal bag would serve me well if traveling was planned. Hmm... how thoughtful.

The GnRH's functions to suppress my LH (lutenizing hormone) because immature elevated LH levels will cause adverse effects on the quality of my eggs and in turn can affect my pregnancy rate. I definitely wouldn't want that so bad that i can call my mind to bear the laborious daily self-injection regime for the next nine or ten days. No problem. The needle prick just felt like the bite of a mosquito. I have endured worse.

Bite down. Relax. And get jabbed.MySpace

Dec 2, 2009

Joey Yap Talks About Haunted House

Joey Yap's FaceBook : Thursday, September 17, 2009 at 12:16am

Joey says : Thanks for the feedback on my previous post. There are many so called haunted houses around. And there are many Feng Shui theories that could possibly explain why a house is "haunted". Ghosts, from the Classical Feng Shui standpoint, could be a type of Qi in the home. This Qi is perceived/felt/conceived differently by ...different people. Hence, some people may 'see' it while some people don't.
MySpaceA house may not need to be completely yin to be 'haunted' if that's what you like to call it. As we are talking about a form of energy or Qi - ANY house with imbalanced, negative Qi flow could cause this phenomenon. Especially when this negative Qi impacts and reacts specifically to certain BaZis.

Theoretically then if the Feng Shui is changed, the hauntings should also disappear. Well - we normally don't have any complaints of hauntings from people who live in good Feng Shui houses. In good Feng Shui houses, at most some of the residents would talk about are visits from Angels, deities or happy spirits. Well again - this is could be how they perceive the positive Qi in their home.

Now I'm not saying that ghosts and spirits don't exist. I've heard enough stories that tell me that they do. And I believe they do. I've heard and seen houses where people have suffered a violent death and their souls continue to haunt the house. But let's ask ourselves here - why would there be a violent death in the first place? Surely the place MUST have really bad Feng Shui before such an incident like this could have happened.

So how do we know that a house could be haunted (through understanding its Feng Shui)? You need two things:
1. You need to be very familiar with the classical texts.
2. You need common sense

For instance, from 玄空秘旨 :

巽宮水路纏乾,為懸樑之犯。
兌位明堂破震,主吐血之災。


Very loosely translated as:

4-6 (Xun Water entangling Qian) Committing Suicide by Hanging
7-3 (Dui Palace with Zhen broken Bright Hall) Disaster leading to Vomiting of Blood
(the actual meaning of thees verses is much more deeper but that, perhaps, we'll leave for another post)
MySpaceSo in general, when we see a 4-6 combination with extreme negative landforms - AND this is an old, old house - we can deduce that someone could have hanged him/herself in that room. And since it is an old house with extremely yin and negative forms - (we could deduce that) it could be haunted with a ghost of the man/woman who died there.

Well, it helps if you know a little face reading as well. A person who is troubled emotionally and spiritually would have 'black qi spots' surrounding his chin, jawbone and mouth area. And his pupils would look dull and lifeless.

How to be rich?

Colin Powell once said :

1. The less you associate with some people, the more your life will improve.

2. Any time you tolerate mediocrity in others, it increases your mediocrity.

3. An important attribute in successful people is their impatience with negative thinking and negative acting people.

4. As you grow, your associates will change. Some of your friends will not want you to go on. They will want you to stay where they are. Friends that don't help you climb will want you to crawl. Your friends will stretch your vision, or choke your dream.

5.Never receive counsel from unproductive people.

6. Never discuss your problems with someone incapable of contributing to the solution, because those who never succeed themselves are always first to tell you how.

7. Not everyone has a right to speak into your life. You are certain to get the worst of the bargain when you exchange ideas with the wrong person.

8. Don't follow anyonewho's not going anywhere...

9. With some people you spend an evening...with others you invest it.

10. Be carefulwhere you stop to inquire for directions along the road of life.

11. If you run with wolves, you will learn how to howl...But, if you associate with eagles, you will learn how to soar to great heights.

12. Never make someone a priority when you are only an option for them.

6 Reasons Why You Failed In Your Business

Joey Yap's FaceBook : Thursday, September 17, 2009 at 12:16am


Man born on 30th October 1975 23.37pm – In summary his email was basically asking about why he failed in his business. My answers below:

1. You lack focus in your work.

You do not have priority in your management of your business. This is a typical problem caused by the double Bing Fire Resource stars flanking the Day Master. One Resource Star will not cause this problem. But 2 flanking your Day Master, this could distort your ability to keep focused.

2. You involved partners who do not share your vision. Nor do they understand your business model.

We can see this from the effect of the Rob Wealth star inside the month branch, which is participating in a ‘combination’ as well as a ‘harm’ with its neighbors. A Rob Wealth star in business – can represent your business partners (or shareholders). You have a Rabbit and Rooster clash separated by the Dog (RW star in the Month branch). Yet these two “clashing” branches are participating in a “combo” and “harm” relationship with your Rob Wealth Star in the Month Branch. Simply put - this indicates your business partners do not share your vision.

3. Lemme guess – you’ve invested too much in overheads such as office space, inventory, equipment etc …without having a proper plan. Oh wait – don’t tell me you don’t even have a proper cash flow plan!

Your BaZi chart shows a ‘destruction’ between Zi (Wealth Star) and You (Eating God). And … the Wealth Star (Zi) is penetrated to the current Luck Pillar’s Stem – where at the same time it seeks to control the 2 Direct Resource stars (which is its wealth star) in your BaZi Chart. This usually indicates reckless, impulsive spending. Your Wealth Star also is in harm relationship with the current LP.

4. You are unrealistic. Actually, worst, – you are unaware or insensitive to market needs. You are probably doing the things you WANT to do, instead of what your market WANTS from you.

This is indicated by your Year Pillar (which represents your market in Business) which is in a “heaven and earth clash” with your day pillar. But notice that your Day Branch is clashing out, while the Heavenly Stem of the Year is clashing inwards. This is an indication where you are doing what you want, rather than what the market wants.

5. You believe that ‘networking’ and ‘connection’ is what will bring you business success. Whereas you should have focused on VALUE creation.

This is indicated by the fact that you have 2 Bing Fire Resource Stars flanking your chart - and both of these Bing fire are untimely and ‘dark’ in this hour of birth. With this formation – you are prone to just “looking good” but going “nowhere.” Hence you spend a lot of time merely doing networking and connecting – because it’s easy. (Networking and Connecting are basic tenets of a Companion Structure with protruding Resource Stars). Resource star likes to do ‘easy’ things, and things that ‘look good’.

Value, which is represented by the “Wealth” star in your chart, is unfortunately located at the tail end (hour) of your chart and it is in a destruction relationship with your Rooster (Eating God). Eating God represents your method, your way or your style of conducting business. While we like “Eating God to produce Wealth” (which gives you your desire to start and run your own business) … unfortunately this Eating God is in a “Destruction” relationship with the Wealth Star AND while it is harmed by the Dog (Rob Wealth Star) next to it. Together, this indicates that you put VALUE creation as last priority.


6. You do everything by yourself and trust no one. You lack the ability to leverage on your resources.

This is due to the fact that this chart is unable to use the 7 Killings stars effectively while the Resource stars are acting as negative stars. This is translated to problems with delegating work to others. Plus, notice that you are the ONLY Ji Earth in your chart with no other Friend star to help you out.

Solution? – Simple – undo or fix all the 6 things above and you WILL stand a better chance in succeeding in business.

Although your chart indicates obstacles, it does NOT mean you cannot do anything about it. To fix or not to fix is a CHOICE. Now that you know WHERE your problem lies and WHAT caused you to fail, then the obvious solution is for you to TAKE ACTION to change / rectify them. It’s all up to your will power and determination to alter your destiny despite the odds.
If you could not do this, then perhaps – you’d fair better working for others for now at least until 47. This is an alternative route.

Sorry I’ve only got time for 6 points for tonight. It’s been a long day and I’m sleepy now, gotta go to bed. Tomorrow I have another full day at work. Perhaps other members of this list can chip in their thoughts and suggestions for you too.

All the best,
JY ☺

Joey Yap : How Fast Can We See Results?

Joey Yap's FaceBook : Thursday, September 17, 2009 at 12:16am

This is a common question many people ask when you give them a Feng Shui solution. My answer would be - “Well, it depends on how fast is YOUR fast.”

The answer, according to the classical texts is – within a couple of hours! This is what is recorded in the old books about Yang Yun Song's (the Great Grandmaster of Feng Shui) ability.

Can we replicate the same kind of results today? Yes and No.

Yes – if you’ve met the criteria of Heaven-Earth-Man for your Feng Shui set-up.

No – if you haven’t met the criteria.

‘No’ here doesn't mean you don’t get results. It just means you don't get the ‘instant’ results you expect or you don’t get the exact desired result. But if you apply the Feng Shui correctly, you will get some results. (And if you apply incorrectly, a bad result is still a result:-) )

So what does Heaven-Earth-Man mean here? It basically means this: understanding the Feng Shui of the property (the ‘Earth’ component of the equation), taking into consideration the Person (the ‘Man’ component) and choosing the right Time (the ‘Heaven’ component) to activate your set-up. Easy.

But then, you ask, if it’s so easy, why can’t we get instant results all the time?
Because, just like anything easy in life… it’s always easier said than done.

Let me give you an idea of what it is you actually need to do in order to get those instant results:

1. The Landform

You need to assess the “type” of landform in the surrounding area correctly, using the correct method. The ‘correct method’ here means – firstly – you must know how to recognize what type of Water Formation, Mountain Formation, and Land Formation that exists in the area, and subsequently, use the appropriate formula/ Feng Shui system to qualify/assess it.

For instance – is this a White Tiger Opening Mouth Formation, or is this a Reversal Dragon Facing It’s Ancestors Formation? Is it a Green Dragon Crossing the Bright Hall Formation or is this a Lotus Formation? You need to know how to recognize this. Or at minimum, know how to recognize the basic 9 Stars Mountain and Water forms in the vicinity of your property– meaning you can see the location of the Greedy Wolf Star, the Huge Door Star, etc. You also need to recognize where the natural Qi mouth is located. You also need to consider the orientation of the land and the Qi flow direction.

If you can’t identify this, your Feng Shui will sometimes work, or sometimes not work at all. Doesn’t matter what SCHOOL of Feng Shui you’re using – San He, San Yuan, Xuan Kong, or the zillion years of experience you may have. Doesn’t matter if you’ve been practicing Feng Shui from the womb. This is a BASIC requirement. You MUST understand your environment in order to tap into its natural Qi. Without knowing the natural forms, you are guessing, at best, what Qi exist in your property. If you don't know what's there, how are you going to tap the Qi?

The environment governs the magnitude of your end results. The better your natural forms, the better your results.

Naturally, it becomes trickier when you are applying this in the city. It’s not ‘harder’ to do in the city. It’s just a little confusing to the beginner. The landforms are still recognizable despite the many buildings and roads. One needs to train oneself to be able to see this. For the beginners, this is what they tend to ‘miss.’


2. House / Property

You need to know how to connect the Landform to the property via the most appropriate formula or method. You need to know which is the best method to use for that particular house or property within that particular Landform (that you've identified). Do you use Xuan Kong Da Gua, San He, Flying Stars or do you simply use Eight Mansions? Which tool works best for your set-up?

There is no right or wrong method. There is also no ONE SYSTEM that rules them all. Any practitioner who claims he has THE method that rules them all is a complete idiot. Completely ignorant. If you come across one, slap him (or her). There are so many systems of Classical Feng Shui. Each with their own strength and weaknesses. Some formulas work faster, while some are steadier but slower. Some are long term based, while some produce instant results based on your available setup.

Keep in mind that there is only the method that works best for THAT immediate set-up based on the landform you have. A wise practitioner will choose his or her method of assessment wisely. You do need to be able to make an accurate judgment call, based on the facts and information gained from your observations. So while there’s no one magic formula to solve all problems, fumbling around in the dark will also not be very effective either. Combining judgment and knowledge… this is the key to the vault.


3. The Human Factor

It’s obvious that different formulas/methods have different approaches to calculating the Person’s Gua or element. Which will you use? That’s something else you need to take into consideration.

4.Time

Now that you've studied the environment (natural land formation), the house/property and the person - it's time to select the TIME where you connect all these factors and activate the Qi. This is the Heaven factor in the equation. Each day and hour - we have different daily and hourly stars. Each affecting the home, people and land formation differently.

5. End Result

What is it that you want to achieve? What are the specific results you want? If you don’t know what you want, how will you know your Feng Shui is working? How do you measure the results? (This is the most subjective part of Feng Shui. Because ‘wealth luck’ for instance, is so general and it means different things to different people).


Can all of the above be done? Sure. I’ve done it many, many, many times. Many of my students have also done it many, many, many times. But I cannot say we can do this EACH AND EVERY single time.

I do it for myself as often as possible to help me achieve my goals. Even then I humbly say – I cannot “create” positive results ALL the time. I can get it MOST of the time... but sometimes I get some side effects too. (I will tell you more on this in my next post. Haha …many funny stories.)

This is because there are so many variables to consider. Some results may not be instant because not all the desired components are ALWAYS present. And our goals change from time to time.

For instance, in the Feng Shui set-up – the required natural Mountain or Water Form is missing or simply unavailable. This means the end result that you desire may not be achievable simply because there is no environmental ingredient you can tap into. So here, you need to change your desired end result you wanna achieve. Or maybe, it’s just a matter of not being able to get ‘exactly’ what you want to get. But Feng Shui still works. It just doesn’t work the WAY you intend it to work. (Let’s face it: even YOU don’t work the way you always want yourself to work!)

So let’s say that you have the right Feng Shui set-up. But the timing is not right at that point. The desired date is a month from now. Then – you simply don’t get instant results. You get a one-month-from-now result.

And at other times, it could be that your client just screws it up. I get this sometimes. When you tell them to effect the change (activate the FS set-up) at 12.25 PM, they will do it at 1.25 PM instead or they simply, somehow, miss the time. Or even activate a different sector. Then they blame you for not making it clear despite the fact that you have written it CLEARLY in your email or fax.

Yeah. Shit happens. What can I say? Maybe it’s karma. Maybe it’s heaven’s will. Or maybe, they are just dumb. Who knows.

So … CAN we guarantee results? Sure thing.

But can you guarantee that you do exactly as we say? Can you guarantee that the desired environmental forms are definitely present?

If so, then no prob. Feng Shui always works – 100%.

What if you don't have the required environmental forms? Then what? Then the Feng Shui's effectiveness would drop. Not that it doesn't work at all. Any components that are missing in the equation above decreases the effectiveness of your Feng Shui or the speed in which you will obtain your results.

2010 Bad Feng Shui Sectors

Mastery Academy published today:

Star 5 Yellow will fly into Southwest sector and that means no renovation (or activate) for SW sector of house or office throughout 2010. If the Southwest room needs some fixing, drilling, or hammering, got to do it before Feb the 4th.
MySpace SW is my main door and my master bedroom.....aiiiiiii

Properties that SIT on the 5 Yellow (meaning, facing Northeast) next year have the extra disadvantage of not being able to perform renovations to the ENTIRE property. This is because the 'Sitting' governs the entire body of the property, hence when a property 'sits' on one particular Star/Qi, the entire property will be affected.
MySpaceLuckily, my house sits on NE

Additionally, the Illness Star 2 Black in the Northeast sector is especially potent in 2010. Instead of the usual cough-cold-fever, ill-health can escalate to growth, paralysis, and even cancer. Hence, try to avoid activating the Northeast sector, or move INTO a Northeast room after Feb 4th 2010.

Here's a TIP: If you are ALREADY in the Northeast room now, try to position your bed in the East small Tai Ji - the annual 6 White is a Metal Star that can weaken the effects of the 2 Black.
Not enough? Okay, here's a trade secret: Using auspicious METAL dates can severely diminish the powers of the #5 and #2 Earth Stars!


Of course, there are exceptions to the general rules. Houses facing Southwest 1 or Northeast 2 have a good chance at wealth prospects, especially when the property market is concerned.MySpaceHey, my house sits on SW1. What does ''property market' mean? Sell the house for good price?

The 3 Killings in the North should not be activated by renovation. Keep still and you should be fine. Otherwise you might risk encountering accidents, robbery, or health complications - add in the annual Star 4, there might even be Peach Blossom scandals and illnesses.

The Grand Duke at Northeast 3

Year Breaker at Southwest 3 should not be 'disturbed'.

Cycle 27 @ day 6 - Began TCM treatment

Consulted a Chinese professor, from China, at Tung Shin Hospital today. Disclosed all my TSH blood tests (collected over two years) results to doc. Also talked about my intention for IVF and shared Dino dad's sperm test result with doc too.

Only 2 minutes into the consultation - so short a period that i could even feel the chair's cold leather on my butts - doc has reached his initial diagnosis - "I am the problem! (y' know, not able conceive thingy). Whoa! fast leh.
MySpace That's the amazing factor of seeing TCM. These China-docs have never failed to amaze me.

Well, thanks to the year's massive yang-earth burying poor xin-metal me, my temperament has been in retarded mode throughout the year. Perhaps, i am in desperation for whatever treatment measures that doc can give me to tune my body mechanism back to top performance? Whatever. I am definitely positioned in the receptive mode, willing to take in all that i can get to assist my goal.

He has prescribed 'tiao li' - redressing of woman's vital hormones and chi. My mouth opened to a big O when the prescription desk fella handed me a huge bag of herbs prescribed for 7-day course, and i believed it weighed more than a kilo. Surprisingly, it only cost RM70 + RM25 consultation fee.

Dino dad spent a good two hours brewing the herb tea. The brewing instruction takes up two third of an A4. Actually, the brewing process is not that tedious but it required attentive monitoring of duration as not to overcook it, otherwise, effort unjustified. Hassle? I can say it over and over again. That's the thingy with TCM. The brewing process factors young adults from picking interest in seeking TCM treatment. Well, Tung Shin realized this and they do provide brewing service on behalf and it only additional RM14. But i couldn't afford spending another 2 hours waiting in this hospital, excuse moa, its a working day!

I have always hated the raw taste of herbs. Bitterness is the last thing i would choose to swallow if there's a choice. Fortunately, i have excellent concentration power. Like a good girl who would get her first car for her 18th birthday, i finished up 2 soup-bowl of dark liquid. No complain. No choking. No convulsion like before. I attribute this first successful consumption of damn bitterness to the sign of good omen. Yeah! another solid step closer to my ultimate target.MySpace

Thyroxine @ 100mg a day + strong daily TCM, i feel....no, wait,....i actually quite sure i can resume my best of health within a month, just in time to face head on with the dreadful daily injections as outlined in the IVF process.

Yes, i can do it. I am going to have a fantastic 2010 Chinese New Year sharing with family and friends my would-be ultrasound images of my twin babies.MySpace

Dec 1, 2009

Cycle 27 @ day 5 - Hypothyroid relapsed

The TSH blood test report came in today. Bad news - hypothyroid relapsed @ 5.82 (exceeded the max of 5.50)

No wonder breathing seemed tight and laboring yesterday whole day. Rationally, this report explained the unfruitful ttc past few cycles. Irrationally, i am tempted to cry "why!!! 天后娘娘, you are supposed to help me bent towards miracle?"

hhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiii..................MySpace