Jul 26, 2009

Cycle 23 # Day 23 - Breast tenderness intense

This morning, Dino dad left for Indonesia at 5.30am. If this deal go through, it will be the happiest time of his life. Of course, that would also mean a baby's on the way.

Situation still holding well. Breast tenderness getting intense which is a sign of regularity. Though its still very early, many baby-websites suggested that the first HcG reading can be taken on day 27.

I am back again on this very almost-deja-vu liked environment - of counting the signs and waiting in intense anticipation. Only this time, i've the chance to run my palms on a one-month old baby boy last evening. My neighbour invited us to join their open-house celebration of their second child. Despite haboring mountainous envy inside, i managed to put on an animated front. Anyway, i thought to myself, i hope this new baby and new-mom could drop some baby-dust on us.
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Jul 20, 2009

Teddy Stoddard

She stood in front of her 5th grade class on the very first day of school, she told the children an untruth. Like most teachers, she looked at her students and said that she loved them all the same. However, that was impossible, because there in the front row, slumped in his seat, was a little boy named Teddy Stoddard .

Mrs.Thompson had watched Teddy the year before and noticed that he did not play well with the other children, that his clothes were messy and that he constantly needed a bath. In addition, Teddy could be unpleasant. It got to the point where Mrs.Thompson would actually take delight in marking his papers with a broad red pen, making bold X's and then putting a big 'F' at the top of his papers.

At the school where Mrs.Thompson taught, she was required to review each child's past records and she put Teddy's off until last. However, when she reviewed his file, she was in for a surprise.

Teddy's first grade teacher wrote, 'Teddy is a bright child with a ready laugh. He does his work neatly and has good manners...He is a joy to be around..'

His second grade teacher wrote, 'Teddy is an excellent student, well liked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has a terminal illness and life at home must be a struggle.'

His third grade teacher wrote, 'His mother's death has been hard on him. He tries to do his best, but his father doesn't show much interest, and his home life will soon affect him if some steps aren't taken.'

Teddy's fourth grade teacher wrote, 'Teddy is withdrawn and doesn't show much interest in school. He doesn't have many friends and he sometimes sleeps in class.'

By now, Mrs. Thompson realized the problem and she was ashamed of herself. She felt even worse when her students brought her Christmas presents, wrapped in beautiful ribbons and bright paper, except for Teddy's. His present was clumsily wrapped in the heavy, brown paper that he got from a grocery bag. Mrs. Thompson took pains=2 0to open it in the middle of the other presents. Some of the children started to laugh when she found a rhinestone bracelet with some of the stones missing, and a bottle that was one-quarter full of perfume. But she stifled the children's laughter when she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on, and dabbing some of the perfume on her wrist. Teddy Stoddard stayed after school that day just long enough to say, 'Mrs. Thompson, today you smelled just like my Mom used to.'

After the children left, she cried for at least an hour. On that very day, she quit teaching reading, writing and arithmetic. Instead, she began to teach children. Mrs. Thompson paid particular attention to Teddy. As she worked with him, his mind seemed to come alive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. By the end of the year, Teddy had become one of the smartest children in the class and, despite her lie that she would love all the children the same, Teddy became one of her 'teacher's pets'.

A year later, she found a note under her door, from Teddy, telling her that she was the best teacher he ever had in his whole life.

Six years went by before she got another note from Teddy. He then wrote that he had finished high school, third in his class, and she was still the best teacher he ever had in life.

Four years after that, she got another letter, saying that while things had been tough at times, he'd stayed in school, had stuck with it, and would soon graduate from college with the highest of honors. He assured Mrs. Thompson that she was still the best and favorite teacher he had ever had in his whole life.

Then four more years passed and yet another letter came. This time he explained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to go a little further. The letter explained that she was still the best and favorite teacher he ever had. But now his name was a little longer.... The letter was signed, Theodore F. Stoddard, MD.

The story does not end there. You see, there was yet another letter that spring. Teddy said he had met this girl and was going to be married. He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and he was wondering if Mrs. Thompson might agree to sit at the wedding in the place that was usually reserved for the mother of the groom. Of course, Mrs. Thompson did. And guess what? She wore that bracelet, the one with several rhinestones missing. Moreover, she made sure she was wearing the perfume that Teddy remembered his mother wearing on their last Christmas together.
They hugged each other, and Dr. Stoddard whispered in Mrs. Thompson's ear, 'Thank you Mrs. Thompson for believing in me. Thank you so much for making me feel important and showing me that I could make a difference.'

Mrs. Thompson, with tears in her eyes, whispered back. She said, 'Teddy, you have it all wrong. You were the one who taught me that I could make a difference. I didn't know how to teach until I met you.'

(For you that don't know, Teddy Stoddard is the Doctor at Iowa Methodist in Des Moines that has the Stoddard Cancer Wing.)

Warm someone's heart today. . . pass this along. I love this story so very much, I cry every time I read it. Just try to make a difference in someone's life today? tomorrow? just 'do it'.

Random acts of kindness, I think they call it!

Jul 17, 2009

Cycle 23 # Day 14 - A day to remember

Today, July 17, 2009 is a gui water sitting on pig (also a water). Water element may not be favorable in this water-earth year which already is a misty year with lots of musty natural disaster. But water is my output, which also referred to as my ability to produce children. On top of that, the Gui has taken precedence to be the nobleman star in July.

With lots of determination and self-control, i have pushed aside the great heartbreak that started since that fateful night on July 9. Somehow, as if there was a divine working magic in dousing out my sorrow temporarily to make way for a wonderful afternoon 2.45pm romp at home - to make a baby, of course. Suddenly it seemed all fallen pieces fell right back to its supposedly position by an unseen force so that the reality of having little dinos be deposited inside my canal to swim in direction for the egg on this very day with clear -stretchy mucous is evident.

We could have missed this important day. I could have continued my outburst and spoilt this day. But i didn't. Thank to all gods, the sex went well, though not perfect. That's all i would cared for now.

I didn't even have space left in my heart to symphatize the death of Teoh Beng Hock's extremely tragic but suspicious death. I am now very consumed with the thoughts of consumating all possible fertile days left of this month from today onwards. Its got to be a success. Gods know i have tried too many cycles. And we have put 'the method' to use. Please make it work.
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Jul 9, 2009

Cycle 23 # Day 6 - July 9

Starting to count again. And starting to watch what i eat. Its a good thing i had my thirst for sashimi quenched today. To get it over with. And to start anew.
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Nope. I am not going to IVF now. Dropped that idea. Going natural. Got to remind myself to get refunded with my advance paid as a deposit for securing the package rate.

We have moved to sleep in the Northwest room too. Its our private TV room now left with only 15cm space left for walkabout after placing our 6 ft bed here. Very inappropriate for a bedroom but very comfortable and convenient with the TV facing us. Its like super first-class seat each time we retire for the evening or when we've bought our favorite DVD, lambasting our audio senses with the home theatre system on each corner while we snuggled comfortably beneath comfortable and a ribena on the side table.

I am anxious to see the noble star # 1 takes its effect on us; with a guai yan (nobleman) and a new pair of baby boys.... shame, shame on me...well, that's what i am wishing for.
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Jul 7, 2009

Renewed Hope



"Can succeed in conceiving."


As convincing as a decree laid upon me. As invigorating as a resurrection. To hear these words spoken directly to me brought tears to my eyes. It felt like died and returned. Perished hopes rebuilt. Wow renewed. Most wonderful words i've heard in months.
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"The soonest is by lunar August or the latest is by lunar November".

As waves of emotions risen to pound on my senses as if to raise the dead in me to welcome the good news. No. I don't mean i'm pregnant now. But at least, for now, its the kind of words i needed to hear badly though my scientific mind is in its constant loops of reminding that proof is to be deemed ultimate. Somehow, i think i deserved to give myself a little hideaway into the believe-land so that i can thrash out the overhaul and rekindle the fire to try again. Reconditioning my mental energy to psych myself up to start counting cycles again.
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Never mind letting go off my favorite sashimi. Keeps my hands off watermelon for a longer while and to continue the bitterness healthcare. We are going to welcome our first Tiger baby or babies next year. Yes! we can. And we will.EmoticonsEmoticons

And most importantly, if this method really works, championing it would be a part of my life's missions, dedicated to all parents wannabe.