Two days ago, the biggest of the six follicles measured at 17mm. Today the doc didn't scan. Why? Why didn't he think a scan is necessary at this stage? What if the eggs had released itself last night? Then it would be a huge professional negligence to waste my money on the IUI and to subject me through the subsequence?
Many burning questions were at the tip of my tongue but i had decided to swallowed them. I thought the need to put up a smarty-pant front was not going to force the doc to make a baby for me. I understand doctors are no salesmen. They are just dumb-mouth highly-trained professional technicians. The thought of hopping from one specialist to another would only delay our objective. After all, i have tried 'managing' my TTC for so many failed cycles already. Better to let go this once. I am sure the doc is on top of my case with my interest at heart. And this is supposed to be a happy journey for us.
I am supposed to have stomach discomfort after this final jab but none came so far. Thank goodness. Could it be that strenuous jogs brought on this benefit? I mean, the pain caused by the first and second jabs disappeared after i started jogging about 2km daily. I was literally pain-free from the third jab onwards.
Tomorrow is big day. Got to report to the medical center before 9.30am. Dino dad would have to have his sperms washed and filtered for only the best and viable before inserted into my womb with a catheter. After that, i will be resting in the center for two hours. Looks like a full half day would be gone.
I am now trying to practice the power of Law of Attraction to overcome the nagging anxiety that came from the realization of a pimple that grew right at the center of my top philtrum. In mianxiang studies, this blasted pimple actually means disturbance to my fertility and pregnancy. What a damn perfect timing to start sprouting about 6 days back. 
What a damn perfect timing to sprout in this cycle where i spent the most money on TTC. It's as if my bad karma was saying "Oh, this time you are getting professional help to get a baby eh, and i shall use the most aggravating method to where it hurt most."
What a damn perfect timing to sprout in this cycle where i spent the most money on TTC. It's as if my bad karma was saying "Oh, this time you are getting professional help to get a baby eh, and i shall use the most aggravating method to where it hurt most." I will be spending MYR700 for the IUI procedure. Despite me erupted and scratched the pimple a few nights back to try flattening the bump so as to hope fervently for it to signify smooth fertilization, the fiery red round scar is still very visible from any angle seen on the mirror. Damn it! its still looks like a bump despite its flat to the touch.
Whyyyyy.....
I got to stop working myself up. Better go meditate now to work on visualizing my newborn twins.
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